Theres the hard line stance of lines. The right and wrong of life. The left, The right, the Line. My side, Your side.......that plain, hard, dark line. Its the line that divides, and segregates and groups. Shit man, Ive been around a while now, those lines are only ever the ones we draw for ourselves.Those are the lines we draw to isolate ourselves from whatever, to draw other to us to stand in that space to build us up, to make a space that is ours. 'Heres what Im comfortable with, and no more"

Hey Im the same, I'm no different from anyone else I guess. Its just that, its getting harder to draw that line. Its getting harder to step away. Its all grey to me right now. Right and wrong, good and bad, up and down positive and negative. I'm just finding it harder to try draw that line these days. I dont know what is me anymore. yes, all melodramatic by the sound of it, but is it really? If there are no lines to mind, if there is no right or wrong, up or down......what is left? If I took myself out of that comfort zone, if I stopped judging, and caring about being judged, ultimately, only one thing would be left. Consequence.

Consequence. Not nearly as intimidating as right or wrong, good or bad. but wow, what a word. It doesnt matter which side of any line ever, consequence is on both sides, consequence is there. So in a way, it doesnt matter what you decide to actually do, go ahead and do it. It's consequence that no one ever thinks of. Are you willing to live with, and take responsibility for that, the consequences of whatever action?

Ive been wondering now for a while of an action I need to take. Today, I saw an alternative. It still wont be easy, but still it may be an easier way to deal with things. I dont know how to breach this topic, how to approach this person, or how to drive a point home that needs to be there, without it becoming a whole different topic of conversation. I may have an answer, but right now, i guess only time will tell. The only thing Right Now, is am I willing to accept the consequences of this conversation? Can, and am I capable of handling whatever comes of it? I dont know. But I only have 2 choices, do or don't.

Again, consequences. If I do, I stand the choice of it being misunderstood, or misconstrued and it bruising a friendship. If I dont, and I leave it unchecked, more drama in the work space, and possibly much more. Which one am I willing to live with? And that's where all those lines get grey.

Its easy to look at lines, and put myself in a little box, a little safe place of self survival. But honestly, those lines are only ever drawn to try protect me, or who ever is standing on the inside of that line. Those lines define only one consequence, one in my favour. You're either with me, or against me, black and white. And as much as I love that idea, thats just not how it works. Its just doesnt feel right. Ah this is all getting grey, there is no point to this piece other than what Im seeing in my head. Gggrrrrrrrrr dammit, words are sometimes so hard to try find.