Strange days

I once watched a movie with that title. it was a bout the return of Satan and the anti Christ and all those action movie things. A good old Schwargeneggy movie. But.....real life can be even stranger.

Its so hard to try put in to words, to try and explain a feeling that kind of swallows all words and is still hungry for more. I meet people all the time, its part of my job. And then you meet someone, who isnt part of that job, or work, or anything you're used to, and they say "Hey Bitch, lets flip that shit up"

And here I am. That person who makes you try and think, make you draw a line between right and wrong, good and bad. A person who makes you think, makes you feel. But, like actually FEEL. there are so many intricacies in this story, but I'm not going to write them down now, or here. Life is strange, our choices more so sometimes. It makes me wonder about the whole cross roads story sometimes. The decisions we we make lead us left or right, and sometimes we go left when we should go right. It's...dammit, hard to explain. I know what's left, and I know what's right, but what if......just maybe, the decision is not based on logic and rational, but on feeling. It just seems we spend so much time thinking, and judging, and coordinating. Everything in it's box, and every box in its place. Who taught us that?! What happened to just letting go and feeling, feeling it all and  following it.

That's almost poetic. Its beautiful in its own way. The "fuck the law" rebellious following. But life.....isnt that what it is? Its hard laws, its hard judgement, its down right hard core in its way of putting you in a situation and patting you on the head while whispering a different story in your ear. This is life I guess. And through it all we can only just try keep head above water because the rules change daily.