Where did she get that from? Thats how I've grown to feel, and understand things of late. Its only because of my convenience that all is cool. I check my phone, the whatsapps, and hardly ever is there a mssg from either of them. And it proves I'm the fool. Im the puppy. I'm always looking for a mssg. Or a .....something. A point of contact. Tonight wont be any different to any other night. There wont be a good night, or a voice note from either of them. Im the one sitting here like an idiot waiting. They are carrying on with whatever it is they do when Im not there. Tomorrow I'll get some BS 'sorry I forgot my phone on silent'. Maybe, well maybe, its time I forgot my phone on silent as well. Tired of being that puppy.
What was I thinking? Still, watching it all for any sign.You never meant anything to her. All those words, only count when you're there, and even then, with a strict limit. Why do you hound on, carry on, on this stupid road?Any person who cared for you, or meant something to you, would surely put more effort into being with you. And thats not even in a physical way, just a mssg way. A something way, and none of that is there for you.
Dont be an idiot and try. Not on this one. You're just a piece on a chess board on this one. Walk away.
