Im starting to get the drift of things. It's not about today, or right now. But hear me out. How I go to sleep tonight, how I feel, what emotions Im carrying, just carry on tomorrow. Its almost like an overdraft limit. I took out a whole shit bunch of overdraft, but not financially, emotionally. It all ended up running dry, just like money.
And its probably only me who sees emotion as currency, or who has to explain it. But I get it now. Part of my anger? Yes, I get very worked up when Im told I dont understand how things work. Because Im being told that, by people, whose life is actually in as much of a shambles as mine. Im learning not to draw boundaries, but see them. And not cross over them. For all my writing, and everything Ive ever said or wrote, I am the guilty one for not listening. And again, not to humans, but myself, that inner voice. Yep, I drank today, and I drank Fri all through to today. BUT. In moderation.
I am proud of me.
