Fuck. After all this time to still find that smoldering anger, its still there.
I thought I gave this up, I though it was gone
but that isn't what smoldering means.

I've cut so many people out, just left them there with out a clue
as to why
or what, made me do it, I can't tell you.

I just cut away what I thought was cancer.
Maybe you were
Maybe you weren't
I just cut it out to make me feel better.....

But I don't. That smoldering is still there. That burn that makes me lash,
that anger that makes me come out and bare my teeth.

I still want to bite you where it wont be fun.

Maybe I am just a biter after all, maybe I am that rabid dog that you love, but cant touch.
Don't touch. Don't go there, just watch it from a far. Let it be and then, let it be.

Watch it burn itself and yelp, then growl and become the fire. Its the circle of life. Just watch it.
don't teach it, never teach it because it never learns from that. It learns from burning. Burning is the only way it knows.

There's such a hate, and I don't know from where, or directed at what. But such a hate.