4th July 23

 I havent written something,

In what feels it could be years.

Somewhere the words got lost in me

Got drowned in all the tears.

But as with all, one day it all dries up

and I sit and stare out blank.

From this newly found dry ground,

From this river bank.

So much hurt, and so much pain

we both have undergone.

But nows the time I try to rise

and forget where this is from.

I dont think that you will ever know

How much you meant to me.

I could write it, paint it, shout it,

But I dont think you would ever see.

My life had meaning, with just us three

A family to begin.

I wish we never had to fight

or think we had to win.

The winning was in you and me,

and the little man between.

And all that has unfolded 

was almost left unseen.

But be as it may, life goes on

and now I sit here cold.

I never know whats coming next, 

or what will be foretold.

In a shallow breath I just need you to know

how much you meant too me.

How much I loved and cherished you,

but I guess you need to be free.

And that being said I guess Im done

No words left to explain.

But always know that I love you

But I'll shut up and just refrain.