And you thought it would be different? Its so beyond broken. And it always ever, only turned out to be trust.
That lacking trust. The trust that just wasnt actually there to begin with.
My anger issue? My Issue? I always knew it was there. As long as I played my part all was good. Anything off of that track, that path and it was my fault. I had to say sorry, I had to rationalise it, deal with it, because I was the bad guy.
The cracks did start showing. I started being more me. Just a bit. And then the storm came. And it was a storm. And it lasted.
But its been a while now. And just when there was a ray of light, the clouds came in, and thats ok. It tore at everything, dislodged things that I thought were firmly nailed down, and thats part of life. Ever changing, thats life.
Go be you now, and God help me find the peace and serenity to just walk. To stop wondering, and worrying, and caring, all those human things. Help me to look forward, not behind, and when I do look forward, not to see the things I do.
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