Well thats it, 48 birthday almost wrapped up and done, and TG for that. Im just getting old, I appreciate the wishes, but man I get the shits with having to constantly monitor 'social media' to say thanks. Im 48 FFS, its not a big deal
But the sting....yes theres a sting. I got birthday wishes from ex-inlaws, which I politely thanked and moved on, but the one Birthday wish, the one I really wanted the most, from my son, missing. I dont so much care that Leilanie didnt wish me happy birthday, but if she doesnt, my son doesnt. I dont know what to make of it. I am upset. Not gonna lie about that. The fact that her own mom and sister wished me a happy birthday, says something. And maybe Im a troll, and maybe unfairly so, on Aiden. But dont come happy birthdaying tomorrow, or whenever your mom or sister or whoever reminds you. The boat has sailed.
If you cant do that, then I guess no more really needs to be said, does it? Sure, again according to social law "but why didnt you do anything?" rules....fuck that. I am not going to remind people of something like my birthday If you dont remember after a 15 year relationship, then you simply dont remember. Its the impact on Aiden that bothers me. He is going to learn, and grow up with the same attitude. But Im tired of worrying now. If the universe is so powerful, then well....guide him. My prayers have gone unanswered for more than a decade, so maybe he has more gusto in him, if anyone ever taught him to pray. Im goin to have a whiskey, and more after that, because ultimately, after this birthday, it doesnt really matter.
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