Snapshot

There are none. Its all the same as it was last year. The year before that. And that one. People are still assholes. Nothings changed. What has changed, is maybe my perception of it all. Done with joking, done with pretending I'm all good and happy. Done with keeping quiet, done with fighting. Done with people, done with family and friends. Everyone can carry on just as they please, just please dont include, or expect anything from me. Ive realized Im wrong, I dont understand and that all of you are always, without doubt, right. I know now i dont have a voice. Not one with any meaning or value. I must just play my part, do what Im told and play surprised when the things I once saw and maybe warned about, come to pass. I must stop looking forward, stop thinking and planning and trying. Just do as im told, when Im told. That is my place.

And while that may all sound, or seem like a moment of insight, it isnt. Its always been that way, I just never knew it. This is a moment of acceptance. A moment of letting things pass. Letting things be. Stopping. Light another cigarette, pour another drink, and then another. Speed up this process of life so it can run out. I'll be out of your hair soon.