Ive realized my life is irrelevant. Ive come to know that now. As long as I play my part, and do what others need, then I'm useful. As long as I play a part in someone else's script, then Im useful. And its not bitterness saying that. Its just the way it is. Im not going to blah blah about a long week, they all are. But at some point you, I, would think there's a break. There isnt. And there wont ever be. I've done the therapy, I TRIED, of my own free will to try get it all, but........if its only a half trying, can there ever be a full?
I just sit here. I do my thing. Thats my place. But...its a time bomb. Everything has that burning fuse, I just dont know how long mine is.
Those you thought cared, actually dont, couldnt be bothered with a single message of "Hi Happy Birthday" and its all ok. Humans are,... well just that I guess. Humans. My time of caring, of living my life for others, is over. Feeling for others? Catch another bus. Im done. Whatever, wherever, whoever, if you dont add value to MY life, then cheers, have a good one. Tired of putting others before myself and what this family needs.
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