Warning bells

Dam. Its starting again. Its been starting for a few weeks, and I was merrily ignoring it.Hoping it was just a phase just a moment in time. Things are starting to feel the same again. Im starting to see and fee the same feelings. I'm pulling away, building walls, isolating myself. I think of people and I go numb. I look at people, and get angry.I listen to people, and get sad.

Its harder to paint on that happy face, and even harder to care about what people are complaining about.But the situation is very different this time.